Yikuntackledisquistinadersketrophobia | emo.emoness.emonist.emokid* impersonater

2006-10-11T21:44:00.001+08:00

watch some nonsense kids episodes!

here's a couple of videos we did apart from the random funny strange and queer things that we didn't manage to get on camera or re-enact them:

first up, it's nonsense kids episode don't know what! 'cos there were up to 4 or dono how many episodes of our self made comedy :3 hohoho.

we're kind of addicted to arashi's lucky man song and while my friend was photoshopping something and playing the song on his computer, we decided to PLAAAY 'cos we were bored :)

i am your so called host / camera man.

chesten is the kooky guy with the grey shirt.

fitri is the baby-nino look alike who randomly screams yeah like a baby at all the wrong times =+="

(she screamed YEAH! when i said chesten won her -_-")

in the end i get pillows thrown at me -_-"

here's another episode! this time i had a sock with me in which i happened to sew some buttons on and stuck a paper mouth on before i left the house this morning.

if you were wondering why i had such a kooky idea: i had 4 hours of waiting time before meeting the rest after school 'cos they had HAHA exams. nyeh nyeh~

i initially named my sock UEBI. but then it got stupid to pronounce and hence became tatsuya's UEBO. =+="

in the end, everyone played with my uebo the sock and his mouth broke T_T

i sounded really cartoonish. OLEH~!

enjoy (:

2006-10-11T21:44:00.000+08:00

2005-01-07T20:20:00.000+08:00

SCREW THIS

I moved. Ok.. I moved to a private blog lah.. For interested parties (yes, jem u, sms me or something lah). Public blogging still on on livejournal k?

2004-12-23T21:51:00.000+08:00

CHINA

Aww man! Jenn's in China! (Too bad he doesn't know where the sacred Malayland is) Haha, he got irritated 'cos I think he thinks that I'm making fun of him.

He told me he was in Shenzhen.
And I thought he said he WAS Shenzhen.

"I thought you said you were Shenzhen".

He mistook my WERE for WHERE.
And he kept saying he is (was).

Then I told him:

"I thought you said you WERE Shenzhen"

Again he mistook it for WHERE.

Oh my god.. It was going on forever.

Brudder, brudder.

2004-12-20T15:35:00.000+08:00

JENN ROCKS!

Haha. Okay, so Jenn changed his hairstyle that I didn't recognize him last Saturday during Bertrand's wedding. But I was staring at him like nobody's business trying to figure out if he was Jenn or not. Lots of moments of doubts though. I only realized that he IS Jenn after he wore his hair band into place. Haha. Oh yeah, and after that sheer wave after the rise for the bride and groom.

And my aunt refers him as a hyper active boy. Haha. Can you believe that? And everyone knows him. Haha.

And he rocked R-AGE down yesterday..

WOO!

2004-12-13T16:24:00.000+08:00

FINALLY FOUND TIME TO BLOG

So long since I've posted anything. Even after the chalet incident.

Okay, so you wanted to know what happened. Let me tell you.

Yenshan misplaced the meat and everyone went ballistic. Guys vs. girls. We screamed and fought like mad. And poor Chesten, the girls made a password - boys are idiots. Any girl who wants to enter the room must say that password whatsoever. Chesten wanted to call me out of the room to watch Inuyasha, so he said the password.

You know what this means? Boys are idiots! You don't get it, do you?

I don't know what's wrong with Rui Yong, everything he keep saying is jitoh. What's that? Haha. That Azim, he cloaked himself in his black sleeping bag. He thinks he's dark veda, the jitoh from Fatal Frame. Wah, he scared Li Ping siah. He wandered outside the kitchen like nobody's business. Haha.

Then during the barbeque, we couldn't even start the fire! We ended up chucking the food into the microwave to cook instead.

So fun, but I lazy to say anything more.

Haiz, I can't install the RO patch, so I'm just snoozing around.

2004-11-24T17:56:00.000+08:00

I JUST FOUND OUT THAT THE EVIL MAN ISN'T THE ONE THAT'S EVIL, IT WAS HIS HAIR THAT CONTROLLED HIM!

No, I did not make fun of Faris. Ok, sort of. Faris wasn't as "evil" as he was all this while. The one evil, is infact; Ron.

At least Faris made an effort to talk to us. The hated in the eyes of upper sec (I admit that we're damned friggin childish lah). He didn't show his hatred for us. Noooo. Not even in his eyes, not even in his tone.. Amazing.

But I hate him.

Walau. Just because I passed him the bowl Natasha (Ms Hesley's niece) took from the table, he made me do this silly monologue I didn't do properly.

Bananas?

When did everyone became bonkers about friggin bananas?

Oh great, another pick on us when he made my group do our skit first. "Haahhahahaa". What's wrong with our friggin script.

And he thought it was improvision.

Please lah.

And we pointed out that he should be turned into a chicken..

But friggin Ron turned him into a friggin snake.

Whatever.

He's the evil one now.

And that misundertanding with Faris

is now plain old over.

2004-11-20T16:00:00.000+08:00

STOLEN

My dad (cum my) bike was stolen. Guess what? A full 2 years at that too.

Bought on 19th November 2002.
Stolen on 19th November 2004.

How quaint.

2004-11-12T19:14:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE HACK!

My ISP has just been abused by this abusive user by the IP of :plutonian. This is seriouc bussiness and I hope that God will bless this computer as this WILL effect the cost of my telecom bills.

This abusive hacker could be doing serious harm now.

And logging into a premium service.

2004-11-11T22:12:00.000+08:00

B-E-A-U TIFUL

Me: What's with your "rock on"?

BabyJaMes™-------->Dont wanna wake the eyes that make me melt inside.. says:
you're a nice person wad

BabyJaMes™-------->Dont wanna wake the eyes that make me melt inside.. says:
so rock on

So sweet to have someone not yelling at me for being friendly.

YOU know who you are.

2004-11-10T17:17:00.000+08:00

SORRY

I've been singing my life in the toilet.. And this came out of my mouth! Amazing!

It doesn't really matter
The least with you I won't bother
Left from your side
Don't give a damn about you
Now I really wanna say something
But it's too hard for me to tell you at all

*I can't bare to say the sorry
That you wanted me to
So long ago
This sorry
And I still find it hard to

We've both gone
In diffirent directions
Leading to nowhere
And now, you're mad at me
That was what I used to feel
It's not the same anymore
Don't feel like keeping any scores

*I can't bare to say the sorry
That you wanted me to
So long ago
This sorry
And I still find it hard to

So sorry, filled with remorse and pain
There's nothing to gain from your apology
But it lies in just my sorry
I can't bear to see your face
When you leave this place
Just because I won't say I'm sorry

*I can't bare to say the sorry
That you wanted me to
So long ago
This sorry
And I still find it hard to

2004-11-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

MOUNTAIN TOP

Wah.. Today I went to that hill somewhere around Mahdi's area. Sure was a great workout. We went up, down and around and round. Haha.. We tried getting to the bottom of this steep uh.. Slope.. Haha.. They said that Kit Ki would roll down if he were to actually visit the place and do what we were doing.

We found a "crop circle". Erm.. It was mainly just rocks layed in a perfect circle followed by a sort of "cut off" ring of grass. Cool huh?

We took this "secret path" back to the swimming complex. Mahdi got afraid when we werewalking through his secret path. So funny. We saw this amazing Termite Mount. Cool man. But Mahdi got freaked out and thought a bunch of adders lived in the hole in the Mount.

And we were back where we came from! The only thing was that we had a hard time trying to get across another slope and across "The Great Wall of China" (It was just a long longkang).

We snuck to this pillar, which Mahdi claims is S E C R E T. Actually, it was just a vandalized pillar. With.. Sick stuff. go see for yourself.

Really sick stuff.

2004-11-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

LIANGY BONGIE

Uhm.. I'm not sure about the title up there but.. What the hack. It's Liang's Birthday today and.. I'm still not over the screw. I hate me.

Why does everyone confuse me with "Ginette". Okay, not sort of an everyone. I mean Colinrina and Liang. Fine, Colin and Liang. Happy? The Colinrina.. Okay, Colin. He's picture of the "Ginette" was a scary choir senior. Or rather fierce. Liang was just basically making fun of me. Some Astreal band chick.. Blah Blah Blah.

I am NOT, blushing.

Oh yeah. Getting confused by your own name can get quite a headache.

No doubts about it.

And the great excuse for Liang's getaway is:
"Chill. It's my birthday. So you can't shout at me."

2004-11-09T20:21:00.000+08:00

SCREWED

I screwed up my act as a schizo during drama today.

Sigh.

Although I am commonly known as one around the school.

I soooooooooooooooooo friggin hate myself.

And with that Faris making me all quirky..

Sigh.

Face it, I suck lah.

I considered myself as emo and I can't even potray that emo image.

I hope that badminton will open for girls next year.

I'd prolly join.

Or if Babygoh ever lets me join Creative Media.

Part of my dream to be a professional photographer too you know?

Sigh.

When will Faris ever accept me as a F R I E N D?

It just ain't friggin fair.

He was Master Li the Kung Fu master...

I didn't moon him today.

I didn't, I didn't.

He's just another tag-along.

I don't have any grudges against him.

It's just not friggin fair.

Sigh.

I wish I was like Daniel or Liang.

Both emotional and having the ability to show it.

I can't.

Why?

Sure, Liang gave me a few uh.. Hints.

But I didn't put them to mind.

'Cos there's a mirror right at the back of the music room.

And mainly because I was desperate for myself to NOT act weird or crazy.

I guess I just screwed.

Sigh.

2004-11-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY FATHER

I hate him 'cos he made me miss The Champion. I'm not contended.

2004-11-08T19:28:00.000+08:00

DRAMASESSIONALTROPHOBIA

I made up this word. I'm starting to fear my drama club sessions. I don't know why.. But I think it's because of my childishness and no ability to act emo. Or is it because of that Faris - who thinks I hate him when I don't. (Actually, I think he hates me too.) Or is it Ron - the guy I liked yet fought with him over.. An act of Faris' or in short. A joke.

Oh well, I hope tomorrow's gonna be okay.

"Everything's gonna be alright.
Be strong, believe."
- Yellowcard's Believe

2004-11-07T19:12:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY (part 2)

>Inside Out<

The 100% Youth camp.
100% R-AGE Youth camp.

And guess what? I got stuck in a train load full of Bedok Methodist Church Sunday School peepz having a tour, also themed, "INSIDE OUT". And what's with their A-GAPE? Isn't that part of Grace AOG's ministry? No?

I'm confused.

And I saw Benjy from CELL on my way home. Sigh. I wish I wasn't dressed in weirdo clothes then. He saw me as a lamie (I'm a lameo mind you). Suprising. He lives further away from the church than I do! He lives in Khatib (damned, Mr Jimmy's place).

Oh well.

A screwed up Sunday.

By the way, a bird flew into my kitchen and landed in the sink.
In the pail of water.
Guess it was thirsty..

2004-11-07T19:01:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY BLUES

Another screwed up Sunday.

I didn't go to church today.
Instead I found myself at Civic Plaza.
With my parents.

I didn't get my 10 bucks for the week.
On the acount that "did not have anything to spend on since I am not out alone".

Instead,
I got a new wallet
A new set of headphones
A pile of Post-its and a notebook
Lotsa junk food from the Filipino store

And a remainder of $2 all around as saved up money..
For the chalet.

What the heck.

Unfair.

Screwed up Sunday.

2004-11-07T18:33:00.000+08:00

FRIGGIN VIRUSES

I'm glad I have not fell sick for quite a while but I'm VERY UPSET AND MAD at my computer for getting viruses and all. What's the use of installing Mozilla when it doesn't work? What's the use of deleting them when they can't be deleted and keeps coming back with more? What's the use of having Adware and Virus removers when they just wreck your com. even more? Hopefully, this situation doesn't detoriate. I had enough.

2004-11-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

PISSED OFF, BUT YESTERDAY WAS NICE

Man, I didn't know Lucky Plaza was such a great place to shop for clothes! Too bad I'm saving up for the chalet.. Sigh* Sad man. Got so many cool stuff there. And to think I thought that the place was just a rundown mall with nothing interesting.

The waffles were nice. Took a long time to do the fish and chips too.

Yep, I'm worried about my com, Hila and Faris.

Not to mention my friggin drama.

2004-11-06T17:21:00.000+08:00

WHO THE HECK INVENTED THE ADWARE SYSTEM?

Who the heck invented this Adware and Spyware systems? Just because I got suddenly "directed" to this searchmiracle.com and blazefind.com, I know have 18 infected files. Great. This explains the lagging of my computer. I'm rather paranoid to log into any other private security or cookie enabled websites. This is scaring me. What will happen when my father checks his policies online? Will his account get hacked and misused? Bloody hell.

Com., don't crash on me now.

2004-11-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

DANIEL WONG (I'M REALLY LAME TO DO THIS)

Our good ol' drama senior is known to be a lameo. Unfortunately, he's trying to impress us by breaking his neck.

In the end, a great pose will do. =)

2004-11-04T23:03:00.000+08:00

POWER JAM - RECLUSE

Liang moshing the guitar. Okay, not exactly mosh. I think Liang should have had his retro look, ya?

I'm not sure but I think it's Heng. Yep. That's his guitar alright.

2004-11-04T20:36:00.000+08:00

FRIGGIN' FARIS

"Love the unlovable. Ask God to change you. Are you willing to accept the change from Him?" - Jenn

Come to think of it. This quote that Jenn told me over MSN a few months back (when Tim was irritating me like total crap) actually makes sense. I'm trying to get my head around Faris but he's cracking me up.

Is this what I get for bring friendly?

I get ditched, scolded, yelled at and even shunned.

Hello, I'm feeling very miserable here. Not only Faris. Blame it on me. I get this response from others too. What the hell is this? Others get their "friendly"s back and me? I get hatred.

Fine. If you guys just don't friggin care. I'm fine with it.

I don't care if you hate me or not, 'cos I'm going to love you.

2004-11-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

THE CHAMPION

Darn that drama series. Make me so emo. I wanna scream and beat up the stupid Yilin. Then the bloody Toro don't know how to stand up for himself and scream at the Yilin. It'll be better if he'd just punch her. Anyway, during the boring parts of the show, Wan Er and I came up with this:

Character / Person
Toro /Jie Lun
Kai Xin / Serene
Yilin / Aisyah
Toro's Mom / Li Ping
Kai Xin's Mom / Ms Christine
Kai Xin's Dad / Kit Ki
Coach / Papa Azim
Wife / Liyana
Xiao Jie / Mahdi

I know we're mean but it's just for fun. Don't take it too hard okay?

2004-11-03T19:54:00.000+08:00

FUCKED UP

I'm so damn bloody frustrated. I woke up at 9.20am today to find that I have cramps. Terrible cramps that only the females know. And guess what? The worst thing ever was that I told Chesten and Mahdi that Drama was on the 13! This is frggin crap! And next week's practice is on Tuesday from 8am-11am! Oh my God! I'm going to die.

2004-11-02T20:31:00.000+08:00

FILMING

I saw Jeanette Aw and Michelle Chong at IMM today. They were filming some sort of drama series lah.

2004-11-01T22:31:00.000+08:00

WONDERING
-by Good Charlotte

If you want me to wait, I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay, I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say anything at all
I'm happy wondering

Go!

(Yeah, yeah)

Since I was a young man
I never was a fun man
I never had a plan and no security then
Ever since I met you
I never could forget you
I only wanna get you right here next to me

'Cause everybody (a-whoa-oh-oh) needs someone that they can trust
and...
You're somebody (a-whoa-oh-oh) that I found just in time

If you want me to wait, I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay, I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say anything at all
I'm happy wondering

Now my life is changing
It's always rearranging
Always getting stranger than I thought it ever could
Ever since I found you, I wanna be around you
I wanna get down to the point that I need you

'Cause everybody (a-whoa-oh-oh) needs someone that they can trust
and...
You're somebody (a-whoa-oh-oh) that I found just in time

If you want me to wait, I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay, I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say anything at all
I'm happy wondering

Go!

(Yeah, yeah)

(Yeah, yeah)

Don't tell me
The bad news
Don't tell me anything at all
Just tell me
That you need me
And stay right here with me

If you want me to wait, I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay, I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say anything at all
I'm happy wondering

If you want me to wait, I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay, I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say anything at all
I'm happy wondering

2004-11-01T19:26:00.002+08:00

I NEARLY DIEDED

Wah.. I must thank God that he allowed me to live and not die. It's horrible! I nearly kena struck by lighting today! Just a few metres away! God must have wanted me to stay and apologize to mua dearie. Haha. But I'm really lucky seh.. You'll be the unlucky one if you didn't have me. Muahahaha.

Note to all:
*It's very dangerous to walk at Treehause Park after it rains.

2004-10-31T22:17:00.000+08:00

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL, LAST DAY OF FUN

Mrs Ong and Baby Goh Goh Chan! Whee!
"Hey. hey, we are both married okay?" -Desmond

Okay.. So I'm really evil. They look like a couple playing in a drama sequel or something.. Haha.

Dainty Mrs Ong!

Aww.. The star is the ball of lard! He looks weird in the NP uniform..

A weirder ball of lard? Ah! Save me! He's gonna eat the camera!

I sneaked up on Kit Ki and... Guess what? Just in time for "My beret's tail's not in place". Haha.

Baby Goh and his Baby Job backpack! And that flat hair and the snout face.. Haha.. A cyute Goh!

Looks like he's got no choice but to shelter with the girls.. Haha.

2004-10-31T20:37:00.000+08:00

COPYRIGHT!

Wahahaha.. I'm the PRO man! I can make my own blawg-skin liao. Hahaha. But the neon colours are a little off the emo side.. But nevermind.

2004-10-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

SOMETHING BY DANIEL

I thought this one of Daniel's entries does make sense about my present. And if you know it, you'll know it! *winks*

Apologised for something I did not do
To make you feel better while I'm trying to
Get a hold of something I cannot feel
Trying to make things better and to make it real
Somebody pull me out from the deep
Ocean i'm drowning bit by bit in emotion

Goodbye Love
Goodbye Love
You left me emotionless
You left me emotionless
Goodbye Love
Goodbye Love
To the orange skies
To the orange skies

Made myself angry just to take it out
With a reason for myself to accept this doubt
Maybe it'll be wiser if I left this now
But I don't want to lose you though I've lost you
Somebody pull me out from the deep
Ocean i'm drowning bit by bit in emotion

2004-10-28T21:41:00.000+08:00

CRAPPY CRAP

Oh crappy crap. I hate my life now. It's so dead and I'm bored to my butt. I don't understand it. Why does Mahdi hate Shu Rong? Last time he mixed with her all the time and now? He even hates me when I'm with her. I don't get it. I don't get anyone. Ever.

*winks* Secrets. The flour, starch and paper.

Darn it. Papa Azim couldn't get on the bus with us and had to take it with.. The evil man's minion. No looks, nothing. FINE.

At least we're gonna have something different tomorrow..

2004-10-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

CITY OF THE DEAD

Looks like I have alot of catching up to do. Been to busy playing DIABLO II.

Sigh.. He's drifting so far apart now that we hardly look at each other... And what in the world? So many Drama sessons this holidays? Dammit.

2004-10-24T21:52:00.000+08:00

IT'S FINALLY HERE! IT HAS COME!

Finally! The Green Recluse Emo T-shirt is mine!!! Wahahahaha!

2004-10-22T21:28:00.000+08:00

I WALK A LONELY ROAD

I walk a lonely road with noone except my shadow tailing me
Along this lonely road, air is the only thing I see
There's no lighted path right ahead lying there right in front of me
Need to unlock myself but I don't even have the key

Why is it repeating over?
Why can't this all stop so I can ponder?
Give me time, just a little while longer
I need to breathe

Hiding in the core of the dark deserted alley
Cannot think of more
More to come and I can't say sorry
Never been this way, left behind
Longing for the way it used to be

Shut up, will you listen to my story
Won't cry 'cos I think I'm the one that hurt you
I'm fine if you think I'm fucked up and got no clue
I died right here for you

Across the lonely road, I feel something watching over me
Scared to look back, fearing that something might get me
But there's no way to run, the path ahead is just a dead end
Did not stop myself but my soul was gone right that second

Sadness had just engulfed me
Filled my heart with pain and misery
Breaking down and crumbling right at your feet
I hate you so please

The lonely road accepts noone
Except for me you'll get none
Getting none of euphoria
You're having nothing of the lies

2004-10-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

HAVING FUN LIKE RAYMOND FUN!

Wah.. Today was heaven. Played PS 2 at Mahdi's house. So cool man. Takeshi Koneshiro.. He looks better in the game man. So scary the game.. But it was fun when Mahdi started calling Chesten's character a lao-ah-pei and chi-gok-pei.. Haha. And I did not realize that my character was abusing and slashing Chesten's ah-pei's butt! Wahaha. I was winning.. Then they had to make me laugh. At least I won the last one. I am the PRO! Thank me, thank me.

For the first time, I really enjoyed having cats around. 5 cats I mean. Aww, Mahdi's Prince Charles' so cute.. And big! But I mean big and furry! Aww.. Sho cyute!!!! Chesten got afraid of the cats around the house..

Walaueh.. Chobits really damn disgusting for an anime.. The manga was good but the story was a little too sick.. Hahaha..

Well, since my scrapnote blog turned out better (please, I made it myself) than my flimsy skin at the moment (I hate this one..), I'm searcing for another skin! Haha..

2004-10-19T20:07:00.000+08:00

BACK TO ME

Sorry for not updating the blog for the past few days. Been to busy making my own layout for my band's blog. It's done and it looks better than my blog!

Man, my electricity bills are rising and I 'm gonna be made to pay.. Shit. Better stop using the com now..

But I'm thanking Joshua Toh (even though I have embarassed myself when I saw him at Cathay) for sending me that song. Wahaha.

I'm bloody worried about my results now..

I'm beat, good night.

2004-10-16T22:21:00.000+08:00

WAY AWAY by Yellowcard

I think I'm breaking out
I'm gonna leave you now
There's nothing for me here it's all the same
And even though I know
That everything might go
Go downhill from here I'm not afraid

*Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Anything

You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here I'm on my way
I made it this far now
And I'm not burning out
No matter what you say I'm not afraid

*Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Anything

Letting out the noise inside of me
Every window pain is shattering
Cutting up my words before I speak
This is how it feels to not believe

*Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Anything

2004-10-14T21:59:00.000+08:00

NEVER GONNA BE THE SAME

I'm so messed up
My life ditched down the drain
Why did I have to go and make things this way?
I'm all weared out, distorted and drowned
How would I have ever imagined

The tears in his eyes as I scrutinize
Him in an indirect way
That fagotty loud mouth just had to shoot it out
To him, now I want you to stay

*Don't leave, don't go
I can't take it anymore
Just stop trying to keep score
I'm finding it hard
To let you go

Never have the face to face you again
'Cos even if you forgave me
Things are never gonna be the same, no change
Everyday I become
So tired, and numb

I ran way, now I left you with a ripped out heart
If it's wrong to put it back, how can you live without one?
I said I'm really sorry

*Breakdown and cry
Washed out and dry
I don't wanna watch myself die
Can't get my head around you

Hurt and not mended
Can't we be friends again?
Seemed all wrong but can I put it straight?
Will you even give me a chance to break free
And change the way I used to be

*Withered and torn
I knew it all along
That I was swearing the things that wasn't there
You faked it like you didn't care

2004-10-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

"oh my...it made my wanna cry...
i held those tears back...
but instead my heart cracked
how i wish all of this
will not go into the abyss...
as Ron made a mistake
that she could not take...
i wanted them to be togetherjust like before...
but i guess its just a fairy tale
that makes me want to wail...
now all i can do is pray...
that things will go right someday
and that God will help them close
the gap that arose..."
-Hila

I apologised. But he wouldn't talk to me.

2004-10-14T21:18:00.000+08:00

WIMBLEDON

Finally! A movie since Shrek 2! Such a sick show.. Oops* I never do my art! Die! I'm lazy lah..

Azim, Mahdi and I (one family) went to North Ponit right after our dadgum Science exam today. We ate at the Ya Kun Kaya Toast and boy was the meal nice. Loved the eggs and the blended Milo.. We made a mess so we ran out after eating.. Teehee..

Our original plan was to eat at Sakura but we ended up watching Wimbledon 'cos we were like so full. We had the whole cinema to ourselves lorh! Cool man! We lyed on the floor, put our feets up on seats, made a mess, walked about and joked about bananas.

This is life!

2004-10-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

THANK ME!

Woah.. Look at Hila's blog layout! Thank me, thank me! I did that and I loaded DAVID YEO's picture in it! Ah!!! So cyute! Come to think of it, my work for her is better than my blog! Muahaha! I am the PRO! I rule!

2004-10-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

SORRY SEEMS TO BE THE HARDEST WORD

Ron, if you're reading this. I'm wanna say I'm sorry. I wanna say I'm sorry for hurting you. I wanna say it's not your fault. The tears in your eyes today ripped my faked euphoria-filled heart. Sorry. Sorry may seem to be the hardest word, and it is. So I'm not saying it to you in person. That's why I am reclusing against you.

I'll probably never talk to you again.
I might not even talk to you again.
I won't be talking to you ever again.

2004-10-12T21:57:00.000+08:00

LOOK! I'M HIDING IT!

I don't know much about History
I don't know much about Geography
I don't know much about Biology
But I know that Ron's an S.O.B

S.O.B - Sexy Oversized Bitch aka Son of a Bitch (thanks Fida)*

2004-10-11T18:03:00.000+08:00

DYING

I'm gonna die of all this excitement about the David Yeo thingy! Hahaha.. I don't know why but ever since he got eliminated, I'm starting to feel a more dreaded desire to know this guy man! Too bad I was too shy, afraid, petrified, stunned, shocked, terrified to ask for his autograph when I saw him in person.. *sigh* Just wish I had more guts.

He simply rocks! Hope to get to know him lah..

2004-10-10T19:29:00.000+08:00

WHY

Sometimes I just feel as if you're bringing me down
Or was it him who set my foot upon the ground?
No - He made me fought with you
This is how it ended, we're through

I feel full of remorse
I've hurt you alot, you've scrutinized me before anyway
Now I guess we're going a different way

*Why does it have to turn out like that?
My heart aches and it bled
I'm left here all alone
With noone to turn to
But I guess it's my fault

I don't care even if the skies were green
You're a moron - that's it, that's what you are
Can't help but to say
You're an irritant to me
I just want everything to be the way it used to be

Said fuck it, I'm fine
Save it 'cos I don't need you
Be it, you just another loser

*Why does it have to turn out like that?
My heart aches and it bled I'm left here all alone
With noone to turn to
But I guess it's my fault

Shoo fly don't bother me
I'm angry at you, can't you see?
I don't know why but just avoid me
Go away, I want to let you go

2004-10-10T18:40:00.001+08:00

VINDICATION

Damn you guys are so.. So.. So evil! See lah, because of you, we have lost David Yeo!

2004-10-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

IN THE END

I had a tiff with Ron.. It was hard to settle..So much hurty and pain.. Agony.. I regretted doing so.. Just because of that evil man's influence.. Now he's mad at me..

Sorry seems to be the hardest word*

At least now I know we're through.

I will be avoiding him now.. I won't talk nor respond. Let me be in my own world..

Why does everyone have to believe that fucking Faris and all he's crap about us?

2004-10-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

POETIC HARSHNESS

I know this guy and he's all made up of lies
He's just a fucking bitch who thinks he's always right
He hates me, he hates you
He hates everyone who doesn't get the clue

He messed us up, he brings us down
Turned our friends into dadgum foes
He blew the tyre off our bus
He couldn't get enough so he decided to kick our bloody arse

*Hey Faris, you're like shit in the toilet bowl
You're not fit to be a counsillor 'cos you just simply suck
I don't give a damned on whatever that you say
Pretty soon we're all gonna make you pay

Now this Faris - I wish he was locked up in a cell
He was too evil that Lucifer kicked him outa hell
He is so bad that he took away our seniors
Made them have a grudge against us

We have started fighting against the innocent
'Cos Faris' evil took over their minds
Fuck that Faris, he's evil
Now he taken away my last will

*Hey Faris, you're like shit in the toilet bowl
You're not fit to be a counsillor 'cos you just simply suck
I don't give a damned on whatever that you say
Pretty soon we're all gonna make you pay

Shut that Faris up
That cock head
Tell him to fuck off
He's going to take over the world
Will you help us?
All together now..

The Faris equation

He equals to
Fuckiness times dumbness
Cleverness over smartness
Diabolical plus evil

*Hey Faris, you're like shit in the toilet bowl
You're not fit to be a counsillor 'cos you just simply suck
I don't give a damned on whatever that you say
Pretty soon we're all gonna make you pay

2004-10-08T20:19:00.000+08:00

EVIL PRESENCE AT 13:31

Reporting..

Evil man, Faris, last seen turning into the lift lobby of Causeway Point.

Crime..

962 bus blew a tyre because of his evil presence. He had somehow caused great damage and many seats were taken away from previous boarders on board the next bus.

All subsdied at the specific time of 13:31..

Then the rise of pure evil struck again..

2004-10-07T21:34:00.000+08:00

SCAR IN MY HEART

Is it me, or is it you
That things have turned and made me feel so blue
Lay on my bed
Your "someone" else flashes through my head a million times

Keep crying my eyes out
Ashamed of my sanity
You have made me completely full of uncertainty

*Noone knows what I've done
Now you've gone
Now you've gone
You wouldn't care if I cut my own flesh
And I bleeded to death
'Cos I'm just invisible

All the hurt and guilt inside
Takes more than time just to subside
Maybe if I could erase you off my brain
I know I might be able to ease the pain

You know it won't work
I died in my sleep and that casket just rolled away
I'm alone

*I can't let go, it's too hard for me
Reality for me is just not easy to see
My mind is jaded of my once euphoria
You left me a scar
A scar in my heart

I can't take the fact that we're drifting apart
Will it help if I pretend to not know you
Or see you
Because soon one day
I won't want to play
Your game that made me cry again

*She looked so better than me
Someone whom you would try to go for
She says things that you wanna hear
You walk pass each other like soulmates gathered

*Guess I'm left in the dark
With noone to guide
Suffered even just to hide
But I know I have to put you down
Walk away from me
Shoo fly don't bother me

2004-10-06T20:36:00.000+08:00

CASKET HAS ARRIVED. TIME TO SAY GOODBYE

So I'm getting all green. I'm getting all paranoid. Why must every other girl be a chio-bu? So I look like a pile of crap who is a man? I crap too much and I'm trying to stop.

But I just can't.

I really need of your help.

I'm going to do it! I can make it!

I just feel that we're drifting apart..

2004-10-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

Here are some class photos. I suck in it.

2004-10-03T19:07:00.000+08:00

LIONEL FINAL

Wahaha.. Today's service was damn funny.. Joey hosted this weird game to test reflexes.. 3 contestants ( Lester Ang. Joshua Toh and Shanon) had to remove the boxes and say out the item underneath those boxes.. Knife.. Balls.. All three of them got the shock after revealing their third box.. It was Lionel Koh in a bald wig! Hahaha.. I can't discribe it here but.. You should have been there..

2004-10-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

GAY DAY HAS IT'S GLORY

It was a total mistake to have invented Gay Day. Now the fact of being gay is well, gay. But not gay until you're awfully.. Well, a homosexual.

I am talking about Ron and Yikun. Ron said they gayed. Yes. Big major word.. Gayed. How gay can that get?

They made noises. Grunted.. Yucks. Eew. Gross. Rolled with each oher..

I just don't wanna think about that "fun" thingy he SMSed me about..

At least Musa gave me a picture from last year's year book.. It's blur but I don't give a damn.

This is Ron! Ah! He looks like Ah Teo!!!

2004-09-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

YIKUNTACKLEDISQUISTINADERSKETROPHOBIC

Thank God my Dad didn't come down with any sort of serious illness or anything after the X-ray. Thank God Leonard's mom (my aunt) is alright.. Thank God for some progress in my grandmother.. Thank god, thank god!

I shall not thank god for having the fear of Yikun (as stated above). It's bad, it's horrible. And it was here. Today. This fateful afternoon. How could this have happened? And..

I OWE MAHDI 10 CENTS!

Thanks to that stupid bet I made about Stanley being in choir because Hila told me so.. Grr.. "Penalty" siaz.. So unfair..

Walau.. Yikun and Ron.. Stop embarassing me!

Now now.. I had alot of fun playing with the brand of Hidir's bag - The North Face. Haha. And spilling my drinks over Aisyah. Stealing people's fries and wedges.. Haha.. Then this Colin come wack me on the head with a textbook and pull my hair tie out twice..

So now the whole gag started..

Looking straight into Yikun's eye's a pressure.. ARGH! I felt like crying.. Seeing the somewhat, "Jessica"(Yu Lun) in him.. ah.. Stop that scary look lah..

I hate Tim now.. Go away.. shoo fly don't bother me.. Recluse T-shirt coming soon liao le hor!

Gotta tell Cindy the good news abot her *ahem!

2004-09-27T18:03:00.000+08:00

FARKING LIFE DAMNED UNFAIR

Hi Ginelle!

Pls tel your Mom that Lola Pening had a stroke last Saturday morning. She's still at the ICU of Ramiro Hosp in Bohol and her condition is still unstable. Her left body was paralyzed as her right brain had a small rapture. Her left body was paralyzed at first but we were glad that she was able to fold her left leg last Saturday evening thus there's still a chance that she will be able to move the whole body thru PHYSICAL THERAPY and medication.

rgds...

Tita Rose

That's the email I recieved just now.. Life is so darn fucking unfair.

2004-09-26T20:05:00.000+08:00

EXTINCTION

Who am I?
Just your little nobody
I'm not even worth a penny
Pity me, cry for me
I'm not who I wanna be

Crying by the street alley
Noone sees me
Opened up my eyes
Saw the world I'm living in
And this is part of my story

*Standing in the crowd
I can't breathe
Noone notices that they're trampling on me
The world is dark
Suffered by a bleeding cut
My time's up and I might be fading away

Don't see the light on the other side
Where's that colourful place I once used to go?
Why is everything black and white?

I feel so small
Everthing seems so strange
I think I'm missing something
And I finally figured out - it's nothing

*Standing in the crowd
I can't breathe
Noone notices that they're trampling on me
The world is dark
Suffered by a bleeding cut
My time's up and I might be fading away

Can't somebody take me by the hand
Take me away from this place as fast as you can
I don't want t die knowing that I'm gone

2004-09-26T19:10:00.000+08:00

IT'S REAL, IT'S COOL, IT'S EMO, AND IT'S GOING TO BE MINE!

It's coming! That Green Recluse Emo T-shirt I've always wanted! Woohoo! I'm going to be an emokid*! Wait... I'm missing something.. Aww.. My floral pants! I need them! ARGH.

3 more weeks to that t-shirt.

I'm gonna get cha!

2004-09-25T22:45:00.000+08:00

R	Refreshing
O	Organic
N	Normal

C	Cheerful
H	Hot
U	Unforgettable
A	Amazing

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

2004-09-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

BLUE AND YELLOW

And it's all in how you mix the two
And it starts just where the light exists
It's a feeling that you cannot miss
And it burns a hole
Through everyone that feels it

Well you're never gonna find it
If you're looking for it
Won't come your way
Well you'll never find it
If you're looking for it

*Should have done something but I've done it enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste some thime with you

And you never would have though in the end
How amazing it feels just to live again
It's a feeling that you cannot miss
It burns a hole through everyone who feels it

*Should have done something but I've done it enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste some time with you

Should have said something but I've said it enough
By the way my words are faded
Rather waste some time with you

*Should have done something but I've done it enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste some time with you

Should have said something but I've said it enough
By the way my words are faded
Rather waste some time with you

Should have done something but I've done it enough
By the way my hands were shaking
Rather waste some time with you

The Used! I love this emo and indie rock band! That's their song and like that blonde guy!

2004-09-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

CHLOROPHYLL MAN!

Right, so I spoiled the nicely done painting of the sea and it's horizon - again. So I wasted more paint during art again..

Haha, I painted my hands green, black, brown, yellow and loads more of green and I had chlorophyll pigmentation! Woohoo!

Presenting..

CHLOROPHYLL MAN!

*I took a picture my hand at that too..

2004-09-24T22:05:00.000+08:00

NOW IT'S DONE

Hey, finally my blog's totally revamped and it.. Looks kinda emo.. Except for that G R E E N P H E N O M E N O N thingy.. That picture's nice but it doesn't look as nice being sidebars..

Hehe.. Got that Gloria snapshot and that Blue and Yellow song playing..I'm starting to like this after the how many hours and a days of revamping.. ARGH! And my nose is killing me!

Well, I screamed and jumped for tissue during the IPW presention.. Wah.. Can die man..

Timothy told me that he's in the hospital because of asthma.. Guess what? I found him online.

So we have started planning to go to "Aloha Loyang" chalet during the holidays.. But that dumb 2/7 is following our idea - that 3 dumb, idiotic, stupid, brainless morons who screamed at me for nothing..

Camarine just called and I wasn't in the mood to talk. I'm just so sick that I feel like dying..

Heheh, thanks Liang, for that little encouragement of yours. Sure, be myself. Don't act. To be emo - practise, act in front of mirror.. Wait, you said not to act!? Anyway, DOOB's acute lil' smiley.. There he is ---> .) Haha.. Liang made DOOB up. That's the name of his smiley.. Never expected that he was sort of weirder than me.. Haha

2004-09-24T13:11:00.000+08:00

BLACK AND RED

Facing upwards on my bed
Sorrow scene replaying a thousand times, stuck inside my head
Noone to scream to, have to let it all out
Too much pain and hurt contained in me
And I long to be free

*Black and Red messing up my life
Killing me like a fork and knife
Now I've forgetten if things were green or blue
Black and red, it hurts so bad
So bad that I'm rolling on my knees
I longed to be free

Going outside, oped the door
Unseen brightness pushed me to the floor
I'm blinded by the light, lived all the while at night
And I cry, 'cos I cannot see
But at least now I'm free

*Black and Red messing up my life
Killing me like a fork and knife
Now I've forgetten if things were green or blue
Black and red, it hurts so bad
So bad that I've fallen to my feet
I'm here for freedom to meet

I guess it's okay, I am meaningless anyway
All my tears have been traded for new fears
I've gone the wrong way and I can't turn back
I'm going to carry on just like that

2004-09-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

SICK AGAIN?!

Wah.. Must have been due to the lack of sleep that I've caught a cold once again.

Damned.. I snoozed to long for my nap that I don't have time to revamp my blog and put that tagboard back on.

*sigh*

I promise I will be abel to tomorrow.

Had that dumb Silent Reading Quiz this afternoon and I tikamed my way through the whole thing..

Hehe.. Cindy, don't worry.. Boon siong's coming to yer'! But you made me look stupid doing that reluctant favour of yours.

I'm really emo about the whole Ron thing now..

Anyway, Mahdi really likes that song, "Blue and Yellow" by The Used. Waha, he's trying to make keys on the piano.

Followed Cindy they all to Causeway Point and got a treat. Pan Wei Bo got new album! I want to buy.. Darn, better save up.

I saw James cheong. AH!!!

I still have so much stuff to do..

Gotta crack up now..

2004-09-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

KILL ME

I'm so busy. I have to finish my IPW project by tonight. Who ask that Jun Rong forget to pass me his information? And who asked me to have dadgum tuition the past 2 days?

I had my Chinese Oral just this afternoon. Thank God the examiner was our own Chinese teacher. I coughed out the whole passage but at least now my worst fears are over. The English Oral wasn't so bad either.

We were all queing up outside the HOD room and we looked as if we got sent to detention. Waha, Mr Goh bought that Jeremy story about us fighting with Ms Chithra.. Other people also thought we kena detention lorhz..

I bought Silverchair's DIORAMA and The Used's Used last Sunday. I could find all the CDs I couldn't find at any other Music Shops at The Hereen's HMV. But the price was doubled, and some, tripled! One of The Offspring's older albums, INXAY ON THE HOMBRE, costed me only $19.90 at Sembawang but at HMV, it costed a smacking 35 bucks! Double the price! Wah, but I had a hard time searching for older albums. You get instant, you pay more.

I'm really broke man. I still want The Offspring's Americana album.. And I have to buy it for Tim as well.. Damned. My SIM card also not enough value.

I saw the Singapore Idol finalists while I was shopping in HMV. Wah, David Yeo!!!! I love that guy man! Although he puts on too much lipstick.

Tomorrow still got DnT test and I have not even started studying.. My homework! ARGH! Have not even done one line! My IPW still less than half done..

But I'm happy that Ron and Yikun patched up.. I see them talking, laughing and jumping together now..

Too bad dumb Ron teased Chesten and called Mahdi, Chesten, they're both mad at him.

Ting Ting lives in the same block as Ron. Heheh..

My knees are jaded. Fell when we were running from Kit Ki.. Abel lent me his hankey *how sweet*.. Too bad I'm not Liping, or he'll have carried me.. Wahaha..

I'm all emo and depressed today. Ron left me and I saw him sitting happily with a girl. Okay, he's always with girls but this one.. He's attitude's sort of different.. She lives around my area too! Wada.. They were having such sweet conversations and he asked her to follow him to the canteen and ignored me for the whole morning. Okay, at least he said "hello" but I turned away 'cos I didn't want to see them..

I played The Used's Blue and Yellow over and over agian and I'm sparked. My song is Black and Red. I'll put it up some other time. I'll have to write Ms Christine a song too.. Her birthday tomorrow seh..

Have to go..

*crying*

2004-09-21T14:51:00.000+08:00

I'M PULLING MY HAIR, BITING MY TEETH.. I'M HOING CRAZY!

I can't help it! I have not touched the computer in.. 3 days!

I'm now in the computer lab at school editing the class blog's template and I forgot to republish!!! I'll do it later.

I have yet to revamp my blog tomorrow. It's sad no to have Drama Club tomorrow but hey.. At least after that dadgum chinese oral..

Gah! I'm late for my english oral! Better scram..

I'll do a sum up of the events tomorrow..

Damned.. I still have tuition later..

Pray for me..

2004-09-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

IN A DIFFERENT WAY

I used to find you fagotty like what everyone said
Seen you as just another irritant beyond apphrehesion
Looked at you and felt so small
That was last time

You bring smiles in a different way
You make me laugh in a certain way
You send joy in your own way

Now eveything has changed
None of you in me remained the same
I find myself turing towards you
I bug you just to be like you

Your irritance brings me jubilance
Your uncouthness brings me bombasticness
Your playing out makes me wanna cry

You send your good side of you all in a different way

I'm glad you were set foot on earth
Though I seem to hate you
But someone just said
And I have just prayed
That piece of advice was

To love the unlovable
Sometimes that someone can be untouchable
Reach out for him and you're unstoppable

Sorry dude.. This is for you.

2004-09-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

WRONG WAY

ARGH! My blog screwed up on me and I still have not finished revamping it. I don't know when I'm gonna finish all this.. More than a week I'll say.. It was hard finding an emo blog skin and resizing and re-typing every single detail back in the whole lay out. *sigh*

FCUK!
I made a blunder in Causeway Point this afternoon.
I went up the going down escalator cos' I was thinking and looking somewhere else.. My hair dresser.. Dammit.. So passei..

Walau.. Tomorrow cannot go out with my brudder, Tim, to buy his belated birthday present.. He always last minute say he cannot make it one.. So disappointing.. Last time I kena get played out.. Now again.. I wonder he keeps "dao-ing" me (term used by Minyang for ignore).. He's not so interesting anymore..

Did I tell you about Papa Azim? Yah, he's a really weird guy. When I say my Papa Azim's weird, he's a phenomenon! Was it just me, Mahdi, Abel, Chesten and Aisyah; or did he just teleported? This happened twice already! He was spotted walking across the street when our bus was just about to leave the bustop.. Then poof! He appeared at the next stop when our bus reached it. How can Papa Azim run so fast? No, it is Papa Azim. We all witnessed.. Twice. But.. But..

Just be glad my Papa Azim's a wizard in disguise.
I might be one too.

Mr Goh is raising suspicions... Oh my god! He forbids emoness...
Crap..

Going for makan with Nigel they all tomorrow afternoon..

*sigh*

My blog's not going to be down by this week..

So much to do.. So little time..

I miss the unlovable one.. (Timmy).. He brought joy in irritantance.. Smiles through uncouthness..

2004-09-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

AWESOME, OH WOW, LIKE TOTALLY FREAKED HIM OUT

I think I went a little overboard with that joke.

I think I've scared Tim.

Yeah.

I didn't mean to.

Sheesh, it's his birthday today. The original plan was to meet at Plaza Singapura to shop for his present. After waiting for more than 30minutes, he still did not turn up.

*sigh*

I've been searching for a nicer blogskin for my blog. I've selected a few and will be making editions and fusing them together to form my own template. Be patient.

2004-09-16T21:33:00.000+08:00

THE OUTSIDERS

I made this song, or simple poem that is. Mr Goh doesn't want us to express such thoughts but I can't help it. It's the emoness in me.

You could say I based this on an "Doutsider"'s point of view. You're right. The book seemed so boring just reading it.. But with glimpses of the movie itself, it has inspired me. Watching it, you can feel. You may even cry. That's what I did. Don't laugh. Hopefully I can watch it again.

The living turned upon - now dead
Selfishness 'cos a war in my head
Everything seems meaningless
And I can't find the answer

Thousands of lines all tangled up
Fill my heart just like a cup
Sorrow, pain
I can't explain
All this hurt I contain

A matter of fact
No one cares
They seem to have forget
If things were blue or red
I can't cry, it's no use
Bleeding deep down
But you can't see the blood
I might be gone in a second or two
But you'll be there for me - won't you?

Faded memories
Broken happiness
Why was life not normal for us to live through?
Survived this ordeal
So many but few
I can't think
And I feel so distorted

Isolated, rejected
Society's unfair to people of other commitments
Crazy, insane
Psychotic I am
I can't control these feelings
You can't make me

Put to an end
I feel so dead
I don't think I exist in this world today
My life is not counted
While others have theirs founded
I'm being condemned
And they think I won't care

2004-09-15T21:59:00.000+08:00

GAY DAY IS BANNED!

Argh! Due to all scaredy teachers, Gay Day is off! It's now replaced with "Emo Day".

The new motto is:
"I"m emo in the rain"

Yep, it's the modified verion of "Singing in the rain".

Sheesh, what's wrong with the word "homosapien" too?

2004-09-15T21:35:00.000+08:00

TANGLED UP

Tim never reply my SMSes.. Haha, don't tell me he really got scared of the "prank" me and cousins played on him that day. All I did was just to say "I love you so" and he freaked out! Haha, sorry lah.. We just couldn't wait until tomorrow to sabotage you..

I'm not sure if I'm meeting Tim tomorrow at Plaza Singapura at 2.30pm. He never reply my SMS when I asked him for confirmation. Well, if he really never reply then too bad lah.. I scared wait I go, he also not there.. *sigh*

That Ron cut his hair until he looked like "Bill Nye The Science Guy".. Haha.. But he sure looked alot younger.. Haha. That blur guy called Mahdi, "Chesten" when we passed the study area during recess.. We started runnimg because we saw Aiysha.. Fitri and Aiysha likes sticking to us like "leeches". I don't mean to be mean; but sometimes, they really bug me..

Mr Goh's reading up on our blogs.

Why can't we express our thoughts?
Our anger and pain
Why can't life be
Simple and plain?
Is it wrong to write a song?
Deep in our hearts sing along?
Can't we just let out
And even shout?
Reached that level I can't attain
Can't show the emoness I have contained?
I can't laugh or cry
My head is aching like it's beginning to fry
A simple thought
That can't be bought
I like things you don't
I hate things you have
I feel so empty,
A hole deep within me
Slowy making me weak
Then to you I face - I seem like a freak

2004-09-15T21:26:00.000+08:00

YOU AND I BOTH

Jason Mraz
( Waiting For My Rocket To Come )
Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me?Oh things are gonna happen naturally

Oh and taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side

And balancing the whole thing

Oh but at often times those words get tangled up in lines

And the bright light turn to night

Oh until the dawn it brings

A little bird who sings about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved

What you and I spoke of

And others just read of

Others only read up of the love

Oh the love that I love

See I'm all about them words

Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words

Hundreds of pages, pages, pages, forwards

More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

Oh then, you and I, you and I,

Not so little you and I anymore

And with this silence brings a moral story more importantly involving is the glory of a boy

Cos you and I both loved

What you and I spoke of

And others just read of and if you could see now

Well then I'm almost already finally out of, finally, out of, finally,

Well Im almost finally, finally, well I am free, oh Im free

And it's okay if you had go away

Oh just remember the telephones well they workin in both ways

But if I never, ever hear them ring

If nothing else I'll think the bells inside

have finally found you someone else and that's okay

Cause I'll remember everything you sang

You and I both loved

What you and I spoke of

And others just read of and if you could see me now

Well then I'm almost finally out of words

2004-09-14T17:42:00.000+08:00

Here are some class pictures.

The unprepared class.

Sure, Fitri looks like some retarded Bugs Bunny.. I tried to make some weirdo actions behind Mr Goh but.. Erm.. It didn't work out..

Aww.. Isn't that sweet? Me gaying around again.. Haha. Yep, I'm hugging Li Ping! Kit Ki, don't get jealous arhz! Hehe..

Kit Ki trying his best to be the center of *ahem*'s attention. Too bad you didn't make it! You made a fool of yourself instead! Haha..

Another gay pose! Haha. This time, I'm hugging Wan Er.. Haha..

Haha.. Mr Goh Goh Chan looks like a bunny rabbit in this one! Yohz ~ Chesten looks like a 5-year-old-kid.

The last class picture! Cheese!

2004-09-11T22:06:00.000+08:00

CRUSHED AND NOT BREATHING

Woah.. Had an extremely long day at the Science Center cheering like mad.. It has worsen my condition.. I can't even breathe normally.

Screamed like hell and screamed like mad but for what? It's only because the judges made a last minute decision to have awards for every team that we actually got something. We even lost to Westwood. Lost to East Coast Primary (again) and Clementi Primary.. We were so soft even though we had 55 members! We lacked all the props. Samuel, Arif and.. Erm.. Some Sec 2 guy broke the buckets after smashing them hard to "make some noise" using their Yamaha and Racer drumsticks..

Woah, I'm pretty jealous 'cos all the other schools had drums.. Especially a pedal bass drumset!!! We came with broken bamboo sticks and.. broomsticks with no "hair"..

I woke up late today.. Not really lah but.. I fell back to sleep after switching off my alarm.. I woke up at 7.30am. And my bloody meeting was at 7.40am! Thank God they didn't leave without me..

That's it I'm out of voice.

Aww! I didn't get to talk to that Colin from Westwood..

Ron and Arif poked me like nobody's business.. With flag poles, bamboo poles and drumsticks.. I rolled down the seats as a result..

Had to follow Ron to Woodlands down just to lend him 3 bucks.. Sigh.. That's why I reached home so late. He owe me $3.50.. What the.. He's dadgum friends are sooooo killing me..

HEY, STOP TEASING ME!!!!

Well, so late. So tired.. Have to sleep or I might just die..

*God is bigger than the air I breathe

2004-09-10T22:25:00.000+08:00

OTHER SIDE

How long how long will I slide
Separate my side I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slit my throat
It's all I ever

I heard your voice through a photograph
I thought it up it brought up the past
Once you know you can never go back
I've got to take it on the otherside

Centuries are what it meant to me
A cemetery where I marry the sea
Stranger things could never change my mind
I've got to take it on the otherside
Take it on the otherside
Take it on
Take it on

How long how long will I slide
Separate my side I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slit my throat

Pour my life into a paper cup
The ashtray's full and I'm spillin' my guts
She wants to know am I still a slut
I've got to take it on the otherside

Scarlet starlet and she's in my bed
A candidate for my soul mate bled
Push the trigger and pull the thread
I've got to take it on the otherside
Take it on the otherside
Take it on
Take it on

How long how long will I slide
Separate my side I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slit my throat
It's all I ever

Turn me on take me for a hard ride
Burn me out leave me on the otherside
I yell and tell it that
It's not my friend
I tear it down I tear it down
And then it's born again

How long how long will I slide
Separate my side I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slit my throat
It's all I ever

2004-09-10T21:41:00.000+08:00

DISORIENTED BUT STILL BREATHING

Came back from NJRC at 8.30pm. Woah, I'm so beat. But at least Ron turned up for the second half of the competition..

Yah, he was sort of blur and he wasn't sure where to go when he reached the Science Center. So I got Mr Fu to call him lah.. I was not sure where he should go either.. Haha. Poor guy, don't even know all those cheers and movements..

Walau, he poked me like hell lah! I can't stand it.. So pain.. Then that Arif play along with me. Poke me left and right.. What the.. Then that Ron say he wanna tie my hair.. Or "play" with it and see if it's "nice".. He ended up tying my hair up in stupid knots.. Grr..

Made friends with this guy from Westwood Secondary (our latest friend but competitor) also named Colin. I wonder if he's from R-AGE.. Hmm.. Maybe no lah..

Alright! Got into the finals!

Poor Abel and Junyang. But at least be proud that those two teams from our school moved up to page 2/7 and 4/7 instead of the last two of the entire hall of fame..

ARGH! I have to fall sick on this day must I? My nose is blocked and it just keeps on running.. My throat is soar and is made worser by all that deperado screams. Hopefully I can pull through this.. Please God, help me.

Crap.. Haven't done a single piece of my homework! ARGH!!! Better rush through now eh?

2004-09-09T20:58:00.000+08:00

THE GOOD OLD DAYS

Here's some pictures of those unforgettable people.. Man, really miss those two!

Haha. Plastic Duck a.k.a Jason Goh. Yaya, I remember that time.. Guo Hao wanted to make friends with him, then keep telling me to ask Jason what's a duck. Haha, then during Chinese lesson, Mdm Chong didn't come.. I threw this stupid paper ball with the word "duck" on it to Jason.. Then he went "Damned Guo Hao..".. Hahaha.. So I tricked Guo Hao and said that Jason called him a rubber duckie, he told me to tell Jason that he was a plastic one.. So *viola! I made them both friends!

The stupid "Ah peh", Yelun. Haha. Sat with this guy for the whole of last year man! What the! He likes to sing one lorh! Everytime irritate me and Cindy, keep singing Christina's Beautiful.. Then this Yelun like to push his elbows until Cindy and I have no space sia! Haha. Everytime say he lazy, then ask me to copy notes for him..Then got once, Ting En was put to sit next to him. Walau, they fought like hell! So end up I have to become the middle man and sit in between them. Whatever they throw at each other always hit me.. *sigh* But I still miss this Ah Peh lah.

2004-09-08T22:39:00.000+08:00

TIMMY-BRAINED

Tim's now a somewhat freako. Not only that, he's also a mutated weirdo. Uh-huh. Anyone has objections? He's really starting to freak me out with all his calls, SMS and MSN chat logs. Hey, he sends weird stuff like that F-word and dickhead.. What the. He put on his MSN nick that he was getting a condom for his birthday..

Keep talking rubbish like nobody's business. Stayed up until about 2 in the morning to.. Answer his SMSes. And in the morning 7.38 SMS me say he very xian. At least he woke me up lah.

Me and Mahdi has become friends again.. Yeh.

So I was wrong about the " I'm never gonna speak to him again" thingy..

The Bible said we must learn to love our enemies..

There Tim goes again..

Saw Ron on the bus today.. Haha. Must be really grateful that I was short of 10cents to buy my top-up card this morning.. Haha. Then I had to take the train to Sembawang then take the bus. Woah.. Yarh, I'm glad he noticed me..

Papa Azim looked as if he was a lunatic.. Haha... He was waving his arms and pointing at I-don't-know-what across the road this morning.. Haha.. Papa Azim..How dumb are you..

Well nights..

2004-09-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

TIM EXTREME!

No.. It's not a refined edtion of a WWF trading card.. It's Timothy! Yeh, sorta love that guy now.. We all used to diss him. Haha. Crazy guy.. Likes calling me up and then talk rubbish.. Haha. Yah, but it was quite fun staying up to talk with him over the phone. Yah, I know. He kept screaming and barking and roaring into my ear about..

A bass guitar.

You heard it. A bass guitar.

Timmy's birthday's coming real soon. 16th September. And what the heck.. He wants me to buy a bass guitar for him!!??

I don't have that kind of money my dear..

Well, I'm thinking of actually getting him a The Offspring album.. But I don't know. Maybe I'll follow him on Thursday to go get his present..

*There goes my floral pants money and my new handphone money

*sigh*

Right. So Tim has gone all crazy over a song.. Yeah. Now he wants to start a band. Okay, so he did want me to join and make this a two-piece band. Right, so he was willing to teach me how to play the drums properly while he switch to be on bass.. Then he told me to be the pianist when I don't even know how to play "old Macdonald had a farm". Then he stupidly but seriously to play the recorder.. Okay, fine.. Please Tim, I wanna be part of this so teach me!

Thanks!

Yaya.. Stop rantering and I'll be your sister.

Wait, we are already in terms of Christ.

*emokid*failed to save the World from darkness

2004-09-07T22:21:00.000+08:00

UNTIL THE WORD OF GOD RETURNS TO ME

I remember long long ago when I lost my Bible in school and my Papa Azim found it and returned it to me. Thanks Papa Azim! The only reason why I rembered this incident was because.. Clara's youth group needed me to write a testimonial about God. Here's the whole scene from Jenn's blog.

"Ginelle sent one of her many sms today and one that sparked an inspiration in me. Her sms was "the word of God returned to me", I thought she was sharing about a song she heard, but she was trying to tell me was she thought she lost her bible, but she found it. Kudos to you, Ginelle! Thanks!"

I was high but sinking low
Walking straight into the unknown
Covered in mud from head to toe
Living my life without a goal

Til the Word of God returned to me
Every thing I read looked strange to me
Couldn't make sense of the words I see
Til the Word of God returned to me

Spirit of the living God fall on me
Give me understanding that I might be
The person that I ought to be
When the Word of God returned to me

Til the Word of God returned to me
I'll keep praying on my knees

2004-09-06T23:22:00.000+08:00

10 CENT

Walaueh! That stupid Mr Jimmy! I first girl kena penalty leh! Damned - my 10 cents.. Caught me for replying Ming Hong's message about going to the library... Darn it.

Ming Hong's phone kena confiscated.. The phone which was actually making those ringing tones was his. Valarie kept sending him SMS in class and he never switch his phone to silent.. Haha.

Tomorrow still have to tahan 31/2 hours of Chinese. How to survive?

2004-09-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

I SINNED

Yes. I did. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to. My sin was..

*setting up a Friendster account for CFS*

Yes.

Sinned.

I didn't tell 'em members,

Gonna upset them when they find out..

God, help me out.

I was just bored.

Fiddling.. with the picture and the info in their website..

Wanted to give publicity...

But..

*sigh*

They're gonna creme me.

Please don't.

I'll delete it if you want.

Just don't let me become your enemies.
Don't scold me.

Please.

Please.

Please.

Please.

Please.

Please.

Please.

Please.

Please.

Please.

That's all I ever wished for.
Your approval will be better.

*emokid*failed to save the World from darkness

2004-09-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

THERE'S ALWAYS A FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING

Yep. You've guessed it. For all you R-AGERS.. It was my first time wearing a skirt to church. I felt awkward but among the midst of people there, I seemed pretty normal. Fit in, blend in... Yaddah Yaddah Yaddah.
That is until..

I went for tuition.. And the peepz there started laughing at me! ARGH! What's the meaning of this? Fine... I won't bother.

Went to church today. Yay! I chatted with Liang early in the morning on MSN. Haha. My other account was too vulgar lah. Heh, such chance that we both have the same CFS pics. on our MSN chat logs! Haha. But he's was black and white.. So nice..

Liang cut his hair and he looks.. Not the handsome girl he used to be. Haha. Heh.. The way he emphasized "Sucks man!" was like.. So damn on lorh. Talk about vulgar.. Haha. I'm still pondering on how he knew who I was..

The "Cat Dog theology" by Rev. George was damn fun. Though he wasn't darn right as funny as Pastor Ronald (almost there..), his strong point and accent kept me awake. All his surprise extras in his powerpoint presentation kept me in suspense.. Waha, must say I enjoyed it man.

Still begging for a Green Recluse emo T-shirt..
Damned.
Noone cares.
It's so nice.. Daniel wore it today..

Right, so the tamagochi trend has made a comeback.. So much though that even Maisie has one. Haha. That's something not making a debut.

Helped Jason Goh make some editions and enhancements to his blog.
Helping Jem Chan find Greenday's "American Idiot" MP3.
*sigh*

My whole body aches like crap.. Thanks to Ron for throwing basketballs at me..

2004-09-04T23:19:00.000+08:00

EMPYREAL

"empyreal \Em*pyr"e*al\, a. [L. empyrius, empyreus, fiery, Gr. ?, ?, in fire, fiery; ? in + ? fire. See In, and Fire.] Formed of pure fire or light; refined beyond a["e]rial substance; pertaining to the highest and purest region of heaven. Go, soar with Plato to the empyreal sphere. --Pope."

Found this on Daniel's blog. Woah.. His blog is full of emo in every word. Sorrow, pain.. No wonder he's labelled the Emo-king. Well, maybe you should check it out.. The lines are really touching..

*sniff*

2004-09-04T23:11:00.000+08:00

Those two behind are those that Fitri likes - NOT me.

2004-09-04T19:59:00.000+08:00

RON-ANCING RON

Wahaha. So my anger has been slapped away. But I'm still not talking to him. The only reason why I'm "restored" today is because I got to play basketball with Ron just now.

Right, so I guess I was a little too paranoid in the morning. I woke up early, I SMSed Ron alot of times to make sure he wasn't still lying in bed, called Hila and over again (but she didn't answer) to make sure we meet each other at The Woodgrove after her choir. Well, the Hila thingy was a dreaded disappointment but.. Heheh.. At least I still got to play basketball with him lorh! :)

*wasted my few cents siaz...*

So anyway, being all cracked up and all.. I forgot to bring along the copy of the NJRC cheer list with me when I was going to meet Ron. So instead of being the one worried about waiting at The Woodgrove for nothing, I kept Ron waiting for me. Haha. Thank God the distance from my house is not far (not far at all) from there.

Ron ended up walking to the basketball court when I saw him. Haha, then I realized the court was there.. .Haha. I'm so blur lorh..

Eh, his fashion sense really damn terrible. He looked like some primary four kid. I was really LOL ("Laugh[ing] out loud").. Hahaha.. His bag somemore so small.. Make me laugh like crap... Okay, at least you see something proper when you look at his face.. Haha.

So I see some people I did not really like lah.. That stupid Raymond who is always bugging Cindy and his friends.. They think that Ron is my brother... Haha. Well, he'll make a better girl like me.. Haha.

Eh, that Ron can be quite irritating also leh. Anyhow take his and my basketball.. Then throw at me... What the.. Got blue black already.. Ow. Then he SMS me say that maybe his butt also blue black.. Haha. 'Cos I threw the basketball at it 3 times.. Haha. Yah, I did that to Wen Qian last time, remember? Haha.

He so naughty, keep hitting my basketball until don't know go where.. Hmmpz. Play on the other side of the court, my basketball fell over the supid torn down fence and into the "marsh" pit below. Then I tried using his.. Didn't fall over.. Walau.. So damn lucky.. Try so many times - always my basketball fall over... Run up and slide down like hell.. Then we fought over his stupid basketball... 'Cos he threw mine over the fence.. I took his, then he started chasing me round in circles. Too bad I still "lose" lah..

Ron looks like a tofu-teddy bear.. Haha. Yah, his skin is too white.. Haha. So his stomach too. :p At least not as bad as Nigel lorh! Jump until can see 3/4 of his underpants.. Haha.

My Sprite sort of "boiled" under the sun.. Yucks. Had to finish it up. *Don't waste*

Ate lunch with Ron and horror came when...

We met Celestine and a few of Ron's "girlfriends" at the bustop.

Right.

I'll shall stop here.

I'm too head over heels... Too lazy to go on..

Wahahahahaha!

2004-09-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

DISS THAT SHIT THAT MAKES ME MOVE

I'm so darn farking pissed off at that irritating pile of scum, Mahdi. Yeah, why is he suddenly so sacarstic? Why is he turning away from me and Chesten? Why is he suddenly shunning us and telling other people bad things about us? Why is he suddenly scolding us? First he started with Chesten, then me. What kinda rubbish is this!?

Fine, so he's utterly ignoring us completely. He's gone nuts, bonkers.. Lost it. But I don't give a shit ('cos it's not his birthday). Ley him be lah. Not my problem. The most hurt I recieve was the insultation of the edits I made to the class blog (especially the song). Called me bitch somemore. He can just shut the fuck up.

I'd probably never speak to him again.
We'd probably never speak again.
We're never gonna speak again.

Since I'm not "affiliated" with him anymore, I've decided to cut every single crap of Malayland, China and Lah-Lah. I've decided to go emo.

Thank you.

2004-09-02T21:23:00.000+08:00

I NEED TO LET IT ALL OUT!

I'm slacking. I'm not even done with my homework. My Powerpoint is lagging and my presentation is missing a few of its contents. Bah! I'm fuming like hell.

But at least I had a great time chatting with Minyang over MSN just now. I can't believe that he is Gaomin's bother lorh! And I keep mistaking him as Joshua from the back view of him. Haha. Well, that's him.

Yeah, good old scout boy. Haha. Gonna find him this Sunday.

Walau.. Still have to finish up the stupid music project.. Haiz.. Don't slack already lah.. See you all Malaylanders!

History Maker

2004-09-01T21:53:00.000+08:00

History Maker

Is it true today that when people pray
Cloudless skies will break
Kings and queens will shake
Yes it's true and I believe it
I'm living for you

Is it true today that when people pray
We'll see dead men rise
And the blind set free
Yes it's true and I believe it
I'm living for you

*I'm gonna be a history maker in this land
I'm gonna be a speaker of truth to all mankind
I'm gonna stand, I'm gonna run
Into your arms, into your arms again
Into your arms, into your arms again

Well it's true today that when people stand
With the fire of God, and the truth in hand
We'll see miracles, we'll see angels sing
We'll see broken hearts making history
Yes it's true and I believe it
We're living for you

*I'm gonna be a history maker in this land
I'm gonna be a speaker of truth to all mankind
I'm gonna stand, I'm gonna run
Into your arms, into your arms again
Into your arms, into your arms again

I love this Worship Song.

2004-09-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

EMOKID OF THE DAY

Yes. I've been stressing on the word emo these few days. Thinking and pondering about it. I've learn to accept emo and and my goal is to be emokid. I don't know why all you people are so happy. I don't understand the meaning of the word "happiness". There's no such word in my dictionary. I live my life in darkness.

I've been stunned today at Causeway Point. I saw too many people I know. James Cheong has changed. Wow. He looks like the exact replica of Dennis Low! I saw Jun Yang and Papa Gavin. Well, I also saw a bunch of Ron's friends and.. Ms Nora, Mdm Nora and Ms Hesley! Ah!!! Scared me like crap!

I like that song on Maisie's blog.

It's been a long time since I've visited Jenn's blog and I was looking for the acronym code when I came across his photo in one of his earlier entries.

Isn't the effect nice? The red spotlight and all.. I couldn't even recognize him! His hair's too long I guess.. He looks like one of our Ex-Riversidians. Haha.

Well, I'm absorbing all my emo powers now to write another song.

I've added some wonderfull pictures of Gloria and Claire's Flower Shop - check them out at my side bar.

2004-08-31T21:57:00.000+08:00

CHINA LAH-LAH

I've been under the major influence of Mahdi and I've started saying "China" and "Lah Lah". ARGH. I can't stop! I feel like a light-headed barbanic moron!

Thank God I wasn't late today. Just on the dot - with Ron. I missed the first 912 and the second one (Ron said he was in it and I'd better prepare because the bus was full). I took the third one and lucky me - that third 912 was only a few seconds behind the second one! Ron so sacarstic, told me to run all the way to the interchange.. *mummer* At least he was kind enough to wait for me at the interchange. *winks*

Hey, today's the Teachers' Day Celebrations. It was so fun like nobody's business lorh! I pity Mr Chan, he's so lonely.. Noone managed to guess him out of the crowd of teachers and students during the "guessing-game". He looked so... emo.

The ACES Day was fun too. Aisyah was laughing at the way Ron danced from the back. He looked like a bunny-rabbit hopping up and down to see the moves of the workout 'cos he was too short! Haha. Ron danced like a girl and I found it pathetic.. Haha.

Fitri didn't come and I'm like so damn happy lorh. But then, "her" Gareth and that stupid Jian Long lah, blocked my view of Ron! And I looked as if I was staring at them rather than him.

I've heard enough of Usher's "Yeah" today. No more - please..

Aww... Mr Goh didn't get the "student-look alike award".. And you know who got it instead? This teacher who Mahdi hates so much! I forgot her name already.

Hey, everyone was so sacarstic to Mr Tsung. He "won" the award for one of the catergories in which I forgot.. Haha. And he was like: Thank you, thank you! *with a big smile, waving his hands*

I made the World Record of hugging Miss Christine 4 times! Wahaha. I win! I have the power! Wahaha.

Yikun was part of the ACBC Fancy thingy and my friends were all laughing at him 'cos his new hairstyle made him look like a duck! Haha. And then I told them that was Yikun, they all went EEEEEEE-kun. Oh yeah, and Papa Gavin. He looked like a girl! While, that's prolly because his action was a girlie one..

The day with encounters of many Rons.. Wah.. So sweet. Haha. And it's also the day he learns to play basketball. Haha. Oooh.. Interesting.. I didn't know he was in Fuchun with Jielun.. Haha.

Walau... Mahdi damn disgusting leh. You know what he did? He ate some sort of coloring and it was on his lips and teeth.. He faked that he was punched and guess what? He spat out a mouthful of that stuff. It looked bloody. But I still miss that time when Abel Yang played a prank on him - the ice that emits heat, eh?

I saw Bobo Chan on the bus. He was sleeping and Mahdi - as usual, was salivating all over his pants like crap. And Bobo Chan didn' even noticed! Haha.

I went back to Woodgrove and I felt as if I shouldn't have been there. For no particular reason but heh, I felt that way and I don't wanna talk about it.

Good night.

2004-08-29T19:43:00.000+08:00

B.U.M

Liang forgot me.. How could he? Grrr.. At least Ron didn't. I think that Ron forgot himself.

We went to the Botanic Gardens this morning for CELL. As usual, I was late. Haha. So everyone had to wait for me. *I'm so bad*

We ate lotsa stuff and I brought the remaining sandwiches home. What a waste, a whole log cake was wasted! Andrew bursted two packets of.. Er.. Food. Haha. He was trying to open them up to eat when the whole thing "exploded" and all the contents fell onto the ground. These.. Er, food.. Were somewhat "camouflaged" in the pile of leaves on the ground.
Haha. The same thing happened to Eunice.

COOL! Joseph dyed his hair.

They played Monkey and I did not join. I didn't have the mood 'cos my gum hurt like hell. Maisie was like a true monkey. No offence - you have to be one when you play one. Haha. Rubuen kicked the ball in order to get it from Shin Yee and Shin Yee.. Rolled down the slope? Haha. So bad..

Ron has been sleeping for the past.. 24 hours. And still is.

Darn, just found out I have a pile of compositions left to do.

And I'm so darn lazy..

Aww...

Come on.

Fine..

2004-08-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

What do people really think about you? by Raven319
Name
Age
favorite song
Parents think	You're lazy
Strangers think	You're gay
Friends think	You talk too much

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Haha. Ain't I a big lamie? I found this one so realistic! It's true! Believe me! Ask those around me!

2004-08-28T21:03:00.000+08:00

ATTACK OF THE CODES

Had a hard time searching for music codes until Musa came and told me what to do. Sure, I had to sacrifice my passwords but it was worth it. I know I can trust him - rite? [So don't let me down, okay?] So presenting my new blog!

Fine, my blog's layout isn't as emo as I wanted it to be. I wanted it to be all blackish.. But now.. It's all rainbow-ie and with added puffs jumping about. I admit it's a girlie blog but it sure does keep you entertained. How bout this - the theme is that: The black template is meant to represent my emoness and the words are just there to compliment my moods. Not everyday is emo day, am I not right?

I'm staring to like this new look..

Tim's been calling me. He's a mystery. He looks so fierce that sometimes, he glares at you. Now he has been smsing and calling me. What the.. I'm too afraid to answer his calls because I'm sort of a.f.r.a.i.d. of him. Haha. Sorwie lah, Timmy!

Been so bored that I've been giving out testimonials on Friendster and doing lamie quizzes and surveys.

Let me have the peace of doing one right now too!

Just hold on fellow Malaylanders, we're heading back to Malayland! No more China!

2004-08-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

TRANSITIONS

Heh! I found this on Liang's photo gallery via his blog. My friend thinks he's Japanese and the other, from China. Haha. Hopefully, he will be my new friend!

Yeah. The specky one.

Anyway, Ron seems so.. Innocent. I should say, he doesn't feel anything and he told me that he didn't know how to miss or love anyone. He hides it. I can tell. I might never take the bus with him ever again. Yes. Why? His friend. Made both of us feel awkward about meeting each other every morning. Irritant beyond apprehension.

Yeah! We're going to the botanic Gardens for CELL this Sunday!

I made a big blunder of myself during yesterday's ACES practice. In front of these two weirdo badminton guys Fitri likes (Gareth and Jian Long). Shoot, and I had to scream didn't I? Niveda stepped on my butt lah! I danced like crap and I didn't know how to do the moves correctly. So embarrassing up on stage. My hair was in a mess too..

Went for the NE tour.. So boring. The thingy me and Mahdi did for Art today gave us both nausea. Ate alot and blasted Hillsongs on the bus. Just received my Science results. And chinese. Flunked it. Darn.

Ron told me he fell asleep while reading my song. So bad.

But it was meant for him.

Tomorrow's Yikun's birthday, must remember to call and wake up Ron at 11.30pm later to wish Yikun HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

See ya, malaylanders!

2004-08-26T20:52:00.000+08:00

A SONG FOR HIS PAIN

He hides his agony and pain
Behind a mask, noone can explain
His happiness was all a fake
Drowned in sorrow filled as deep as a lake

I can feel that lie his telling
That story line is fading
And I feel so helpless just watching him wither

*And I can't take, this pain he's goin through
I can't wipe away, all his tears and fears
It's not me that's in his shoes
I wish I was the one who died instead
But all these should not be meant to be
The weight of the world should be placed on my shoulder

As his mask starts to tear
Revealed the hurt and scars
Tears could be seen trickling down his cheeks
He puts them away secretly
- But he does not know I caught what he was doing

I'm struck, gone through emoness
I don't feel heroic to this
You can tell that I'm an impersonater
-Blinded the sight of a stranger

*And I can't take, this pain he's goin through
I can't wipe away, all his tears and fears
It's not me that's in his shoes
I wish I was the one who died instead
But all these should not be meant to be
The weight of the world should be placed on my shoulder

He was broken up
Torn apart
Why did his bygone one left him in the dark?
His light gone away, forever
Soaked through mud
His knees are jaded
But he still moves on

*He said only if he could close his eyes
Lie on his bed, never to wake again
I told him he was not born a Jesus
And he was made to live and not to die

*And I can't take, this pain he's goin through
I can't wipe away, all his tears and fears
It's not me that's in his shoes
I wish I was the one who died instead
But all these should not be meant to be
The weight of the world should be placed on my shoulder

2004-08-25T20:17:00.000+08:00

FACT - EMO? YES? EMONESS? GONE

Ron... He came from a broken family? Just like Maisie? I don't believe it. He seems so happy. Or is he trying to hide behind the mask, his pain and agony behind? I feel so emo now. If he had told me earlier, I could have thought of an emo monologue this drama club session.

I don't mean manipulation. No. I feel so sad for him. I.. I don't know how to say.. I'm too depressed to go on..